I had the most wonderful talk of my life…it makes me feel a thousand fold better.
I didn’t know it – but it was eating at me, all this repressed mistrust and anger, all for the sake of being politically correct and maintaining relations. Do I care about these ? Sure. But it was being a complicated mess, and I felt like I had to sort all problems and achieve the goal that everyone said was natural, obvious and imortant but no one seemed to be working at.
So I said it, spoke my heart out and gave my brain a rest without worrying about consequences. I feel free now , carefree – not from responsibilities, but this enormous burden is gone. It vaporized in a few sentences.
As a child, I vowed that I would not be entangled in this mess that people create with relationships. Fate had another plan. Ha, but I win . I’ve rid myself of this , unraveled the knot that tied me in so firmly.
Ego-maniacal ? Selifsh , you say ? I don’t care. I don’t owe any explanations. My conscience is clear. So is my mind. Man is born alone.
The windy , cold and damp November in Dortmund doesn’t bother me anymore.
I see sunshine.